The words were flowing

So, the more frustrated with my job I get the more I seem to be able to write. I've expanded on both the front and back of the passage I previously posted. All of this is still rough, but I figure once I have a basic draft I can go through and edit it. As always, thoughts are appreciated. Here's what I've got:

Lexi walked in and saw Logan with his arms around Rachel. Rachel saw her and hugged him closer before kissing him. Logan pushed her away. “What the…” turning he saw Lexi. “Lex, this isn’t what it looks like.”

“Well, it looks like the two of you are getting pretty cozy. I’ll just leave you two to whatever you were doing. Logan I’ll see you later.” Turning, she headed for the door.  Logan ran after her and grabbed her arm before she got out of the room.

“Can’t you trust me? This was completely innocent. We were catching up, I gave her a hug to say goodbye and then she kissed me. I had nothing to do with it. Can’t you trust me?”

“You left me for her. You chose her over me. How am I supposed to trust you after that?”

“She. Was. Pregnant. What did you want me to do? Abandon her? You know I couldn’t do that.”

“I WAS TOO!” she yelled and watched his jaw drop. Lexi felt the tears start welling up, so she turned and fled. Logan couldn’t do anything except watch her leave, not even close the door she left wide open. His mind was reeling, if she was pregnant where was the baby? Why didn’t she tell him? Did she hate him that much? Logan knew that the more time he had to think the more questions he would come up with, but at the same time he needed to process everything.

***

Lexi knocked on Julie’s door, not knowing where else to go. “You told him, didn’t you?” Julie asked as soon as she saw Lexi’s face. Lexi just nodded and sniffed. “How did he take it?”

“I didn’t get a chance to tell him everything. We were fighting and I asked him how I was supposed to trust him after he left me, and when he asked what I wanted him to do because she was pregnant I blurted out that I was too.”

“Wow.”

“Yeah, then I just ran out crying. I probably shouldn’t have driven but I had to get out of there and I didn’t know where else to go. I mourn our loss every day.” Julie just wrapped her arms around Lexi and let her talk. “I probably could’ve found a better way to tell him, but it just came out. I was meaning to tell him, but not like this. Maybe I should go apologize.”

“Slow down sweetie. You’re not thinking straight right now and I’m sure Logan needs some time to process what you’ve told him. It’s a lot for one person to take in, especially when it was dropped out of the blue.”

Logan stood gaping at the door. “Wow, was she a drama queen or what?” Rachel said. “I’m sure she was lying about the being pregnant thing. She just said that because she knew that I was pregnant and that’s why you left he…”

“Shut up! You manipulated me then, and you’re trying to manipulate me now. You were the one who lied about being pregnant, not Lexi.”

“I only did it because I missed you baby. I knew you missed me too but you wouldn’t leave her without a good reason. We’re meant for each other, which is what I was trying to tell you before we were so rudely interrupted.”

“Rachel, when will you get it through your thick skull? I. Do. Not. Love. You.  I never did. Trying to trap me into marriage didn’t make me love you, it made me despise you. Now you need to leave so I can figure out how to get Lexi to listen to me.”

“Ugh!” Rachel huffed as she stomped out the door. Logan was happy to see her leave, he didn’t have the energy to deal with her when his mind was still reeling from Lexi’s confession.

Wrote some tonight

So, I started writing my story...but I started from the climax. I've had this part in my head for quite some time and I just needed to get it out. I'm hoping that having this point will allow me to start building the story to this point and then finally finish it all together. I'd love some feedback:

“You left me for her. You chose her over me. How am I supposed to trust you after that?”

“She. Was. Pregnant. What did you want me to do? Abandon her? You know I couldn’t do that.”

“I WAS TOO!” she yelled and watched his jaw drop. Lexi felt the tears start welling up, so she turned and fled. Logan couldn’t do anything except watch her leave, not even close the door she left wide open. His mind was reeling, if she was pregnant where was the baby? Why didn’t she tell him? Did she hate him that much? Logan knew that the more time he had to think the more questions he would come up with, but at the same time he needed to process everything.

***

Lexi knocked on Julie’s door, not knowing where else to go. “You told him, didn’t you?” Julie asked as soon as she saw Lexi’s face. Lexi just nodded and sniffed. “How did he take it?”

“I didn’t get a chance to tell him everything. We were fighting and I asked him how I was supposed to trust him after he left me, and when he asked what I wanted him to do because she was pregnant I blurted out that I was too.”

“Wow.”

“Yeah, then I just ran out crying. I probably shouldn’t have driven but I had to get out of there and I didn’t know where else to go. I mourn our loss every day.” Julie just wrapped her arms around Lexi and let her talk. “I probably could’ve found a better way to tell him, but it just came out. I was meaning to tell him, but not like this. Maybe I should go apologize.”

“Slow down sweetie. You’re not thinking straight right now and I’m sure Logan needs some time to process what you’ve told him. It’s a lot for one person to take in, especially when it was dropped out of the blue.”

Reading it again

So, I'm reading a book for the third or fourth time. I started it at work tonight when I was bored and got half way through it before my shift ended. I'm a unique breed in that I reread the books I already have. If I didn't I'd be buying a new book every few days and be completely broke. I tend to reread certain authors, which tells me I like their writing styles. I think I can learn something about how I want to write by reading the works of authors I like multiple times. Hopefully I can pinpoint what it is that keeps me coming back to their writing and incorporate it into my own. One aspect of being a good author is reading lots (and anyone who knows me can testify that I have that part down), but I need to get more into the writing part. Here's hoping that the creative juices will be flowing tomorrow.

The first of hopefully many...

This is my attempt at a blog. I figure daily writing will help me develop my writing and hopefully bring me one step closer to becoming a writer. I would like to write like Bella Andre, Jami Alden, & Delilah Devlin. They are three women who create stories that suck you in with romance, yet are erotic too. These women are powerful and completely confident in what they write. I hope to one day to have someone get lost in my story the way I have gotten lost in theirs.

I write more than just romance and here's something I wrote a few months ago. I'd appreciate it if you felt like giving me some feedback:

The house on the hill

The house on the hill is getting harder to see,

Through the cloud of fog it’s barely visible.

I’m no longer sure if it still sits there,

Or if the outline I see is my imagination.

Regardless of how fast I run,

How hard I push

The distance never lessens.

The house is just as far away today as every day before.

It used to be a bright and shiny beacon,

So warm and inviting,

Lit from within.

The dream of a happy home

And a true love

Once so sure

Now a distant dream.

One by one the lights have gone away,

Until nothing remains

But a remote outline

And dashed hopes...

And I’m not sure that’s even real.